Most of the times, despite the hardness, I've always have things my way.
I want good marks, I get it.
I want new baju kurung, my mom sew it for me.
I want to go overseas, I read medicine in Czech.
Things always turn up the way I want them to be like.
Don't misunderstand me.
It's not that I trample others on my way there.
I'm the person who set my goal and go for it.
And luck is always by my side.
And what's happening now is a complete vice versa.
Now is that time that we called the 'once in a blue moon' (and I hope so)
Things turn up upside down
I don't have my say
As it don't mean end of the world for me
It's still bothering me every now and then
It's suffocating, like an underneath space where I have difficulty breathing
Where I can see what I want and not getting there
It's the time where I need to tame my I-want-it-I-go-get-it personality.
Things like this happens.
The phase where you, like usual know what u want and what to do.
It's just that now, it involves other
And things get complicated when we have other people in our way.
We need to take them into consideration.
A very serious consideration.
And I don't like it.
I guess that explains me being an individualistic person.
Which, I am.
Don't get me wrong.
It's not that I despise the presence of people around me.
It's just that I enjoy being independent on reaching my goal.
Because experience taught me, if I'm to wait for others on the way to reach my goal.
I'll never be there.
Because people, most of them, like to procrastinate thing.
And everyone have their own commitment.
And I'm not the one who wait for the unknown.
So, isn't it better for me to charge forward?
When I know what to do.
And let's get back to the main point.
When u are a girl, living in a foreign country, nurtured in a close knit family.
Doing things alone is not preferable.
By the situation.
By the general safety.
By the family.
By yourself, it's preferable.
Now I taste another side of the live.
My teacher told me
"when I was young, I want to eat tasty food"
"but I don't have the money"
"now, I have a fortune and a galore of everything fine and tasty"
"but what's the use of it, when I don't have my appetite"
"...if I'm to wait for others on the way to reach my goal..I'll never be there.."
ReplyDeleteSometime i do feel the same,everyone have their own way of living, studying, socialising and stuffs, susah la kalo semua benda yag kita nk buat kita kena tunggu orang...contoh..kita suka study santai2 sambil berfoya2 sket2, tapi kawan kita mungkin ada yg suka melagha to the max then study sampai bengkak mata xtido before the exam day..takkan kita kena ikot dan tunggu dia jugakkan utk nk study kan?.. penat la mcm tu..hehe~
kita dilahirkan dengan nature yang berbeza2, susah juga kalo semua benda nk buat bersama2 nak kena tunggu orang, at the end mcm yg lina ckp la kita yg susah n lagi worst apa yg kita nak pon xle dapat sebb asik tunggu orang je...
for me,eventho kita semua berkawan, tapi ada certain things yang kita kena strict dalam hidup ni..especially in making decision..xboleh jugak asik nk ikot orang, nk jaga hati orang padahal kita xsuka kan?.. for me,being individualistic is not wrong kalau ia bertempat, and if you think it will benefits you and selagi ia xmenyakitkan others y not?..
plus i think benda2 akan jadi mudah kalo kita buat sendiri compared to kena tunggu org tu, tunggu org ni..sumtime,it's hard to make a decision when we have to consider lots of people..hehe~*opss..being selfish here!LoL!*
ni semua cuma my opinion je..just wanna share with you, tak perlu sama pon xpa..i know certain people wudnt agree with wat i said above, tapi nk buat mcmana..itu la yang saya fikir, i dunt want my life's wasted just by waiting for others..
tapi apa pon, bersikap individualistic tu biar bertempat la...kalo dh sampai xcampur dgn masyarakat tu masalah jugak..and we've to bear in mind jugak,ada certain things yang kita kena buat ramai2 n xbole n xmampu buat sendiri..hehe..
wow! PANJANG~
selamat membaca la yerk!hahaha~
gimme a high 5 Kak Koin.
ReplyDeleteTotally agree with u!
hehehe