Orthostatic Intolerance

Back in high school, whenever I passed out, it's break time for all the band members.

I used to passed out quite often, I couldn't stand static for too long.

It was embarassing of course, seeing other people were ok and me the athlete faint for such a lame reason.

When in National Service, during our first assembly which was held early in the morning in the hall since it was raining outside, I fainted too.

When the commandant came to visit right after assembly (the sickbay is just next to the hall), I covered myself with the duvet and cried.

It was embarassing lah!

Who faint in cosy assembly?just me ok?

but I had the commandant massaged my foot.

Now, to think of it, not everybody get the commandant to massage your foot isn't it?

Even when in BTN I fainted.

It was a chilly morning.

Having experienced many same unfortunate events before, I knew that it's coming and braved myself to tell Liyana beside me that I'm gonna passed out

And since that girl was freaking out if we r going to b punished by those pakcik2, she just said "Lina aku takut la!"

Hahahaha, that girl, she was called to the front after the assembly

"Kamu dah kawan nak pengsan boleh suruh dia tahan sekejap?"-was this what they asked you girl? =D

And I ended up earlier at breakfast than everyone else.

I fainted once at home.

It was Ramadhan, perhaps nearing the end of the holy month

Because I was hanging the curtain up

At least that what I think I was doing before I regained consicousness due to my mother nagging about me shocking her.

Oh emak!anakmu jatuh pengsan mencium lantai boleh emak membebel.

Well, not her fault. she didn't know that I always pengsan.

Before I passed out, I would sense that I'm losing all my consciousness slowly and right before I become soggy vege, my vision would black out.

and then plop!

and then in seconds I regained consciousness.

I used to blame myself for not having much endurance.

You see, with my size and me always moving around, when I pass out for just standing too long

It seems like I'm weak and mengada-ngada

And the blame stops here when I found about orthostatic intolerance.

Yeeeha, at last a medical explanation to me being sotong.

I wouldn't want to bored you with the explanation but if u are intersted, you may turns to wiki of course, where else?

If you want to tell something to others, u should make it clear.

Pesanan untuk diri sendiri dan orang lain.

Because I care.

I Feel Like A World Citizen

Hahahaha, of course I'm a world citizen.

I wasn't born and bred in Mars.

But all the time, it never hit me that I'm a world citizen.

I always consider myself Malaysian, no more or less.

But the email that I've just received a few moments ago

Well, how to put it in words?

Ok, let me tell you

The title is

[CzeMSA] AMARAN KERAJAAN CZECH: Bahaya debu gunung berapi

It sent me blank for a while

I was like, huh?

And then I give a nervous laugh

You see, I've been living a great amount of my life in Penang

I was on the island when the unexpected tsunami striked

That's the first and last so called disaster from lingkaran api pasifik that we got

Alhamdulillah, Malaysia is spared from volcanoes and earthquakes albeit our neighbours Indonesia and Phillipines sit rightly on the active earth crust

But then, the most we get from that is the tsunami and few tremors when the quakes hit Indonesia

There's no warnings whatsoever I've received

Hence my reaction when I received the email

Iceland is quite far from us, nevertheless the recent eruption from the susah-nak-eja volcano

really caught my attention and concern

If there's somemore eruption in summer, high fat chance air travelling will be affected again

And that means not going home

I think I overthink about this but then this country has closed its airspace due to the eruption

I tanak la be in Czech in summer and not going anywhere for the fear of the hazards the ashes may bring

Here's an excerpt from surah al-Dukhan

10. Then wait you for the Day when the sky will bring forth a visible smoke.

11. Covering the people, this is a painful torment.

12. (They will say): "Our Lord! Remove the torment from us, really we shall become believers!"

13. How can there be for them an admonition (at the time when the torment has reached them), when a Messenger explaining things clearly has already come to them.

14. Then they had turned away from him (Messenger Muhammad ) and said: "One (Muhammad ) taught (by a human being), a madman!"

15. Verily, We shall remove the torment for a while. Verily! You will revert.

What A Wonderful Creation

Learning medicine in fact reveals many wonder of Allah creation.

In theoretical year, maybe I moan a lot about having ceiling-high notes to be registered into my hypocampus (memory center).

Why isn't the vessel just have one or two branch, why must it branches like crazy?

Why should the cell scattered here and there?It would make my work to remember things easier if they just uniformly aggregate at 1 place.

Now that I learn physiology and biochemistry in second year, I begin to feel happy because these 2 are about understanding, not just staring and remembering.

Ya, ya, I ha a conflict with biochemistry at first.

Like, why should I know this molecular pathway whatsoever?

As if I can see they are working in yocto size.

Actually biochemistry is essential, say to aid you in prescribing the drug to patients.

Since a disease has many predisposition and many etiology (causes) and many symptoms

And a symptom can appear in many diseases.

PBS is in 5th year and she told us, in surgery, once they watched the doctor put an apparatus into the great vein of the leg. That is like the most important vein in the leg to carry the blood from the WHOLE leg back to the heart.

Then he twisted the vein, twisted, twisted and pull out.

Nah, he just pulled out a freaking vena saphena magna/big saphenous vein!

I don't know if that freaked the 4th years out but it does freaked me out.

But you know, the most silencing fact is that even without vena saphena MAGNA, the leg can still function

Why?

Because, He has created so many collaterals (those are like, teeny weeny, thousands of small blood circulations, that before this I questioned their existence)

And those teeny weeny, why-are-you-here collaterals are able to compensate for the loss of vena saphena MAGNA.

Oh, oh and another ineteresting fact - Ondine's curse

It's a disease where you'll be dead if you forget to breath.

This thing actually exist!