There are times when I feel my hard and long way that brings me here is insulted, by actions of a certain bunch of people.
Even worse now, I have just embrace the realisation that this is just a speck of dirt. I'll be encountering more such people and even worse people in my working environment.
Do I care? Not if I'm not in the scene.
Am I alright with all the ugly going ons? I am definitely not alright. The thing about being upright is that I am always jumpy when someone is bended. It doesnt help when I detect phony right away without even intending to do so. I would really like to give anyone who deserve it a piece of my mind, which btw, is rather poisonous and put them right back to where they belong. Only thing is that these people mostly don't stay put.
Sigh!on one side, they r reminding me how wretched is this world and how unworthy this world is for me to trade it with hereafter. But boy, being patient sure is hard. Whoever it is that say it is easy to enter jannah.
Today, I just let someone get away lying to the doctor right in front of my face and my friends' faces.
Our conspiracy theory is that he did it like that so that he can add insult to injury for us.
The good thing about believing in judgement day is that u know Allah is fair.
You can get away from wrongdoings in this dunya, but u will never get away in akhirat (the judgement day).
Judgement day is gonna be payback time. if today he feels a sweet victory, I'm gonna feel the same thing, more intense and everlasting
Last but not least, do not burden yourself about payback on your own for this type of people. Swallow it, our mere mortals payback is pathetic. why do that when God Himself will do the payback. and we know (for some, deep inside) God never dissappoint.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Monday, May 6, 2013
Pseudologia Fantastica
Pada waktu rehat yang agak panjang pada hari isnin pasca pilihan raya umum Malaysia ke 13, penulis dan 2 org rakan, Manih dan Bukit sedang membelek SIS untuk periksa perubatan
Wah ada 7 tarikh baru la 27 haribulan
Lihat tarikh 27 sediaada.
eh, dah tinggai 1 la. cakemaker ubah tarikh dia kot.
Pung pang pung pang
aku nak amik 26 la
pung pang pung pang
tu la 27 mcm tipis harapan
pung pang pung pang
Tiba2 jari gatai pi tekan tengok sapa yg buat tarikh 27 tu.
Eh bukan cakemaker la. Kerismas! Bagaimana mari?
Secara spontan penulis bangun dan terus bertanya kerismas yang selang 5 kerusi.
Niat ialah ingin bertanya adakah dia dah pernah ambik periksa musim dingin lepas. bukan apa, sbb ank husnuzon.
ada 2 kesalahan di sini
1. niat tak menghalalkan cara. salah penulis pi tanya secara terbuka.
2. kalau org dah menipu berkali-kali, septutnya pengajaran yang diambil ialah tidak bertanya apa-apa soalan. sebab jawapan selalu kelentong jugak.
*** dialog mungkin sedikit berbeza dari apa yang berlaku. namun poin-poin utama dikekalkan
Kerismas : ta. aku tak ambik
Penulis : Eh dah tu macam mana nama hang boleh ada kat sistem ni. bukan orang yang ulang saja ka boleh dapat. mana boleh buat macam ni. orang lain pun nak jugak tarikh
Kerismas : aku buat ah periksa usim sejuk lepaih. aku tak lepas. kena ulang
Penulis : *aku serius lupa apa aku ckp ms ni*
Kelas sunyi sepi.
aku hanya penuh dgn perasaan tak adil! tak adil!
Menurut Cikib, seluruh kelas sunyi sepi, sbb semua org tak percaya kerismas
beberapa ketika yang agak lama kemudian.
Kerismas : awat hang ambik tau awat hang ambik tau hal aku?
Penulis : Mesti la aku ambik tau. tu bukan hal hang. hal aku jugak.aku pun nak tarikh jugak
Kerismas : * hingaq bagai nak pecah dunia mempertahankan diri * ia bukan perniagaan hang pon?
Penulis : perniagaan aku ok. awat hang nak marah tak tentu pasai kalau hang betoi
sementara itu sepanjang pertikaman lidah kawan sekelas saya yang bernama Nouveau memalingkan mukanya ke arah saya dan membuat muka mengiakan bila saya semboq ayaq lidah.
Mari saya pecahkan penjelasan saya di sini
1. tarikh untuk periksa sepatutnya hanya boleh dipilih secara dalam talian. cuma org yang mengulang yang boleh mendaftar melalui setiausaha
2. kalau org dpt tarikh, adalah hak saya untuk bertanya bagaimana disebabkan hak untuk bertarung mendaftar tarikh periksa adalah hak semua orang dalam tahun saya.
3. ketua jabatan adalah sangat berkira dengan tarikh periksa. tiada siapa yang ingin membuat cubaan pertama boleh ambil periksa sepanjang semester. tiba2 seketoi budak induk boleh buat.jadi aku berpegang pada orang Islam tak boleh jatuh dalam lubang yang sama 2 kali. lupa beberapa rakan kelas dan cikgu cikgi sendiri adalah bukan Islam.
4. hang ingat aku ni takdak kerja sangat ka pi jaga tepi kain hang. lgi baik la aku pi jaga kain songket ka, kain sutera ka dari jaga doi hang yang compang camping tu. sila sedaq diri walaupun itu sangat susah.
aku dah tak kisah hal Kerismas sejak masuk tahun lima. lantak hang la nak jadi apa.
walaupun hang tuang kelas kawkaw dan aku tk puas hati, tp perasaan aman bila hang takdak melebihi segalanya.
tapi aku tak sampai hati nak cakap aku lagi suka hang tuang kelas sbb hidup aku akan aman sentosa.
aku tak dak pen peyerlah kale oren dan aku tak teringin nak pi tanda kehadiran bagi pihak sapa2.
ada aku kesah?
yang penting toksah tertanda nama aku pulak masa hampa dok kalut pi ubah suai kehadiran.
oh aku mmg tak hingin nak jaga bisnes hang. bukan dapat gaji pon.
aku harap aku dapat pengajaran agar tak tanya hang soalan lagi sbb hang adalah amat jarang sekali mengatakan yang benar.
Jangan ingat aku tak tau bertahun hang jadi wakil pelajar hang pi mesyuarat berapa kerat saja.
Jawab la nanti kat akhirat.
dan akhir sekali, kalau hang tak salah, tak dak pasai hang nak meletup tak tentu pasai. meletup pulak bila dah beberapa ketika habih bercakap dgn aku.
sori la, aku tak niat pon nak tangkap hang bertangan merah di hadapan satu kelas. Niat aku nak mengelakkan aku saspek hang.
Kalu hang paham baha Kelantan, aku nak tujukan video ni untuk hang
point keenam ialah hit the nail on the spot. seketoi macam apa yang jadi tadi pagi.
http://www.wikihow.com/Spot-a-Pathological-Liar
Tentang penulis : penulis membesar dalam keadaan yang memerlukan penulis mempertahankan diri penulis dari sebarang ancaman sendirian. jadi penulis telah menjadi terlebih berani dan terlebih vokal dalam menyurakan pandangan. namun disebabkan proses dilalui berseorangan, penulis tidak dapat mengevolusi kepada cara berhikmah.
Wah ada 7 tarikh baru la 27 haribulan
Lihat tarikh 27 sediaada.
eh, dah tinggai 1 la. cakemaker ubah tarikh dia kot.
Pung pang pung pang
aku nak amik 26 la
pung pang pung pang
tu la 27 mcm tipis harapan
pung pang pung pang
Tiba2 jari gatai pi tekan tengok sapa yg buat tarikh 27 tu.
Eh bukan cakemaker la. Kerismas! Bagaimana mari?
Secara spontan penulis bangun dan terus bertanya kerismas yang selang 5 kerusi.
Niat ialah ingin bertanya adakah dia dah pernah ambik periksa musim dingin lepas. bukan apa, sbb ank husnuzon.
ada 2 kesalahan di sini
1. niat tak menghalalkan cara. salah penulis pi tanya secara terbuka.
2. kalau org dah menipu berkali-kali, septutnya pengajaran yang diambil ialah tidak bertanya apa-apa soalan. sebab jawapan selalu kelentong jugak.
*** dialog mungkin sedikit berbeza dari apa yang berlaku. namun poin-poin utama dikekalkan
Kerismas : ta. aku tak ambik
Penulis : Eh dah tu macam mana nama hang boleh ada kat sistem ni. bukan orang yang ulang saja ka boleh dapat. mana boleh buat macam ni. orang lain pun nak jugak tarikh
Kerismas : aku buat ah periksa usim sejuk lepaih. aku tak lepas. kena ulang
Penulis : *aku serius lupa apa aku ckp ms ni*
Kelas sunyi sepi.
aku hanya penuh dgn perasaan tak adil! tak adil!
Menurut Cikib, seluruh kelas sunyi sepi, sbb semua org tak percaya kerismas
beberapa ketika yang agak lama kemudian.
Kerismas : awat hang ambik tau awat hang ambik tau hal aku?
Penulis : Mesti la aku ambik tau. tu bukan hal hang. hal aku jugak.aku pun nak tarikh jugak
Kerismas : * hingaq bagai nak pecah dunia mempertahankan diri * ia bukan perniagaan hang pon?
Penulis : perniagaan aku ok. awat hang nak marah tak tentu pasai kalau hang betoi
sementara itu sepanjang pertikaman lidah kawan sekelas saya yang bernama Nouveau memalingkan mukanya ke arah saya dan membuat muka mengiakan bila saya semboq ayaq lidah.
Mari saya pecahkan penjelasan saya di sini
1. tarikh untuk periksa sepatutnya hanya boleh dipilih secara dalam talian. cuma org yang mengulang yang boleh mendaftar melalui setiausaha
2. kalau org dpt tarikh, adalah hak saya untuk bertanya bagaimana disebabkan hak untuk bertarung mendaftar tarikh periksa adalah hak semua orang dalam tahun saya.
3. ketua jabatan adalah sangat berkira dengan tarikh periksa. tiada siapa yang ingin membuat cubaan pertama boleh ambil periksa sepanjang semester. tiba2 seketoi budak induk boleh buat.jadi aku berpegang pada orang Islam tak boleh jatuh dalam lubang yang sama 2 kali. lupa beberapa rakan kelas dan cikgu cikgi sendiri adalah bukan Islam.
4. hang ingat aku ni takdak kerja sangat ka pi jaga tepi kain hang. lgi baik la aku pi jaga kain songket ka, kain sutera ka dari jaga doi hang yang compang camping tu. sila sedaq diri walaupun itu sangat susah.
aku dah tak kisah hal Kerismas sejak masuk tahun lima. lantak hang la nak jadi apa.
walaupun hang tuang kelas kawkaw dan aku tk puas hati, tp perasaan aman bila hang takdak melebihi segalanya.
tapi aku tak sampai hati nak cakap aku lagi suka hang tuang kelas sbb hidup aku akan aman sentosa.
aku tak dak pen peyerlah kale oren dan aku tak teringin nak pi tanda kehadiran bagi pihak sapa2.
ada aku kesah?
yang penting toksah tertanda nama aku pulak masa hampa dok kalut pi ubah suai kehadiran.
oh aku mmg tak hingin nak jaga bisnes hang. bukan dapat gaji pon.
aku harap aku dapat pengajaran agar tak tanya hang soalan lagi sbb hang adalah amat jarang sekali mengatakan yang benar.
Jangan ingat aku tak tau bertahun hang jadi wakil pelajar hang pi mesyuarat berapa kerat saja.
Jawab la nanti kat akhirat.
dan akhir sekali, kalau hang tak salah, tak dak pasai hang nak meletup tak tentu pasai. meletup pulak bila dah beberapa ketika habih bercakap dgn aku.
sori la, aku tak niat pon nak tangkap hang bertangan merah di hadapan satu kelas. Niat aku nak mengelakkan aku saspek hang.
Kalu hang paham baha Kelantan, aku nak tujukan video ni untuk hang
point keenam ialah hit the nail on the spot. seketoi macam apa yang jadi tadi pagi.
http://www.wikihow.com/Spot-a-Pathological-Liar
Tentang penulis : penulis membesar dalam keadaan yang memerlukan penulis mempertahankan diri penulis dari sebarang ancaman sendirian. jadi penulis telah menjadi terlebih berani dan terlebih vokal dalam menyurakan pandangan. namun disebabkan proses dilalui berseorangan, penulis tidak dapat mengevolusi kepada cara berhikmah.
Sunday, May 5, 2013
Choice
Does living overseas makes one blinded of the happenings in one's own country?
I'd like to think that sitting atop a hill gives the big picture that u cant get when u are in the valley.
Living overseas means I have more free access to information and clearer judgement.
But most of those living in Malaysia think the opposite.
It doesn't matter that I dutifully went to PLKN and BTN.
Doesnt matter that I diligently learn in schools
Doesnt matter that I put up with the lousy transportation for years
Doesnt matter that I was scared as hell going through so many things alone due to circumstances
Doesnt matter that I survived after almost stepping from the elevator to a immigrant brandishing bayonet, chasing another immigrant
Doesnt matter that I fondly talk about my country to my foreign friends
Doesnt matter that I am a decent walking model of Malaysia
No, all that doesnt matter.
For as long as my stand is different. I am the ungrateful.
Just because I said the truth, I am subjected to harsh words and treatment.
Thing is the 700 euro I get every month, my tuition fee, they are all the people's money. Not the government money.
Whatever it is in Malaysia is ours, not the government.
The hands that feed me is feeding me because my countrymen put them there with our money and resources.
and the choice is mine, as long as I choose wisely.
And thank God this ungrateful thing doesnt do drug, doesnt have a baby out of wedlock let alone killing the baby, didnt kick or slap her schoolmates when in high school.
I dont believe anybody, not even myself. and above all I dont believe any politician. Because the constant thing in mortals is change.
I put my highest hope in the one up above. He's the rightful owner of every single thing.
and I pray that the one up above guide our leaders so that they govern wisely, justly.
Oh yes, to them my prayer is poison.
What I see of the campaign?
Why you should choose us , why they shouldn't win, their sex scandals, this scandals that scandals this corruption that corruption.
I hardly see"wht we wil do for you". maybe I dont look hard enough.
Not coming back will really hurt me. As much as it is fun living overseas, I still feel that I am not one of them.
The only way o feel at home is to be home.
But do I go back to people who brand me ungrateful and say things to me just because I have different opinion. Do I go back to people who talk with lust but not brain.
The one who sent me away is saying that I should stay here. and when I say it may be the right thing to do, I am ungrateful because I don't want to go back.
And lastly, just because I say the truth, doen't make you more patriotic than I do.
For all I know the act of voting is patriotic and what u choose doesn't make you more or less patriotic.
I can recite Rukun Negara fluently, I may know more patriotic songs than you do and I doubt you know the details like where the YDPA suit originates and what is the folding of the YDPA tengkolok is called.
I know why I choose to be away and unless you correct your attitude, I may make the same choice again.
I'd like to think that sitting atop a hill gives the big picture that u cant get when u are in the valley.
Living overseas means I have more free access to information and clearer judgement.
But most of those living in Malaysia think the opposite.
It doesn't matter that I dutifully went to PLKN and BTN.
Doesnt matter that I diligently learn in schools
Doesnt matter that I put up with the lousy transportation for years
Doesnt matter that I was scared as hell going through so many things alone due to circumstances
Doesnt matter that I survived after almost stepping from the elevator to a immigrant brandishing bayonet, chasing another immigrant
Doesnt matter that I fondly talk about my country to my foreign friends
Doesnt matter that I am a decent walking model of Malaysia
No, all that doesnt matter.
For as long as my stand is different. I am the ungrateful.
Just because I said the truth, I am subjected to harsh words and treatment.
Thing is the 700 euro I get every month, my tuition fee, they are all the people's money. Not the government money.
Whatever it is in Malaysia is ours, not the government.
The hands that feed me is feeding me because my countrymen put them there with our money and resources.
and the choice is mine, as long as I choose wisely.
And thank God this ungrateful thing doesnt do drug, doesnt have a baby out of wedlock let alone killing the baby, didnt kick or slap her schoolmates when in high school.
I dont believe anybody, not even myself. and above all I dont believe any politician. Because the constant thing in mortals is change.
I put my highest hope in the one up above. He's the rightful owner of every single thing.
and I pray that the one up above guide our leaders so that they govern wisely, justly.
Oh yes, to them my prayer is poison.
What I see of the campaign?
Why you should choose us , why they shouldn't win, their sex scandals, this scandals that scandals this corruption that corruption.
I hardly see"wht we wil do for you". maybe I dont look hard enough.
Not coming back will really hurt me. As much as it is fun living overseas, I still feel that I am not one of them.
The only way o feel at home is to be home.
But do I go back to people who brand me ungrateful and say things to me just because I have different opinion. Do I go back to people who talk with lust but not brain.
The one who sent me away is saying that I should stay here. and when I say it may be the right thing to do, I am ungrateful because I don't want to go back.
And lastly, just because I say the truth, doen't make you more patriotic than I do.
For all I know the act of voting is patriotic and what u choose doesn't make you more or less patriotic.
I can recite Rukun Negara fluently, I may know more patriotic songs than you do and I doubt you know the details like where the YDPA suit originates and what is the folding of the YDPA tengkolok is called.
I know why I choose to be away and unless you correct your attitude, I may make the same choice again.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Tips For State Exam
In my faculty, we sail final year of medical school working in department (am not sure if we are really doing it though) and cap every rotation with state exam (STATEX)
STATEX means viva in front of a board of examiners.
That being said the board of examiners is made of specialists from different specialties.
Example in surgery we have so many types of surgeon. Breast surgeon, urosurgeon, cardiosurgeon.
So since we know who are in the board, we can choose. Get it?
Say if you think kidney is a tough subject and will most likely be a stumbling rock in your quest for red diploma (sth like 1st class degree), you may choose a board without nephrologist for you STATEX.
Words of wisdom from a Dr that taught us diabetes recently.
Talk about disease that you only have seen from textbook and even the doctor has seen only one in 10 years of his career. Be prepared that he will be so inquisitive about the disease. after all, we mere human always fuss over things that is not usual
Focus and talk about the bread and butter in medicine ie diabetes, hypertension, cholesterolemia. Doctor will either yawn off or expect you to know ins and outs of the disease. after all, it sure will come on handy when you launch yourself into the workforce.
For me, ultimately it's work and Allah permission that will see me through medschool.
Happy studying!
STATEX means viva in front of a board of examiners.
That being said the board of examiners is made of specialists from different specialties.
Example in surgery we have so many types of surgeon. Breast surgeon, urosurgeon, cardiosurgeon.
So since we know who are in the board, we can choose. Get it?
Say if you think kidney is a tough subject and will most likely be a stumbling rock in your quest for red diploma (sth like 1st class degree), you may choose a board without nephrologist for you STATEX.
Words of wisdom from a Dr that taught us diabetes recently.
Talk about disease that you only have seen from textbook and even the doctor has seen only one in 10 years of his career. Be prepared that he will be so inquisitive about the disease. after all, we mere human always fuss over things that is not usual
Focus and talk about the bread and butter in medicine ie diabetes, hypertension, cholesterolemia. Doctor will either yawn off or expect you to know ins and outs of the disease. after all, it sure will come on handy when you launch yourself into the workforce.
For me, ultimately it's work and Allah permission that will see me through medschool.
Happy studying!
My Playground
The oppurtunity for one to give and to receive is abundant within the hospital compound.
Earlier today, again, I looked outside for a while through the glasswall of our education center.
2 men were walking to heir respective dstination. Just that their strides are not normal and it takes them extra extra time compared to us lucky person who have perfect pair of legs for walking to get from one point to another.
When I went to get the milk from the convenient store in front of the emergency department, I saw a wheelchair-bound man outside of it.
And poof! the opportunity to help materialised.
Just go and as if he needs any assistance or if he would like for you to get something from the store for him.
And as I walked towards the forensic department, I passed an elderly couple. The woman was walking with feet inwards and the man, he was holding tight to this woman's hand, a pillar for her to step forward.
And these are beyond the hospital room. I have lost count of how much lessons about life have I went through. Definitely, not less than my opportunity to help.
Earlier today, again, I looked outside for a while through the glasswall of our education center.
2 men were walking to heir respective dstination. Just that their strides are not normal and it takes them extra extra time compared to us lucky person who have perfect pair of legs for walking to get from one point to another.
When I went to get the milk from the convenient store in front of the emergency department, I saw a wheelchair-bound man outside of it.
And poof! the opportunity to help materialised.
Just go and as if he needs any assistance or if he would like for you to get something from the store for him.
And as I walked towards the forensic department, I passed an elderly couple. The woman was walking with feet inwards and the man, he was holding tight to this woman's hand, a pillar for her to step forward.
And these are beyond the hospital room. I have lost count of how much lessons about life have I went through. Definitely, not less than my opportunity to help.
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