Life's Brief Candle

"To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing."

- Shakespeare -

Wisdom tooth

Announcing the soon to arrive..
My second wisdom tooth.
Image from here

I can palpate it.
Just a matter of time before it erupts.
So, the other 2 wisdom teeth on my upper jaw haven't shown up yet.

Why wisdom tooth?
I found the answer from Wikipedia :
They are called wisdom teeth because usually they come in when a person is between age 17 and 21 or older—old enough to have supposedly gained some "wisdom"
Image from here

Well, well, well
We'll see how true the statement is
Alhamdulillah, there's no pain just a little discomfort.

I Got The Thorax!!!!

wheeee!!!!
I.Got.The.Thorax.

Image from here

There are 4 groups who want thorax but only 2 groups can have it.
And me and Neo did!
Thorax is pretty interesting TO DISSECT
Since thorax dissection is on 2nd dissection class (which allows me enough time to revise on it)
And the fact that I like internal organ and thorax seems to have the HEART


Why not :
Head and neck?
- 1st dissection

Abdomen and Pelvis?
- I don't think cutting thru cadaver's (I repeat, cadaver's) gut and genitalia is my interest.NO. (I prefer living human's)

Arm?
- 3 people on an arm, that's too many hands, scalpels, tweezers and brains
- plus, no organs, just muscle, bone and vessels

Leg?
- (refer hand)

All in all, like Prof Slizova said
"Every part is interesting"
and I have my pick

Dissection

My first dissection kit (but why I'm not excited - the alien syndrome again?)

I don't like cadavers.
I'd be the last person to hold it.
But starting next week, we are CUTting open the lifeless bodies.
OMGOMGOMG
It's not that I'm scared
It's just that I'm freaking hate the formalin
It makes my eyes water and it doesn't smell nice either (complaining too much- I can't help it)
Bright side of it - I'm dealing with tweezers and scalpel and I get to revise what I learned in winter semester (literally) via the dissection
Er, just one thing, should I charge forward?
Well, U know, the thing about being a tall person.
U are always asked to give way to the so called smaller ones.
And tall people like me?
I feel like I'm being dumped
I'm not happy okay.
Never.
My principle, first come fist serve
So if you want to get a nice spot, move quickly
So that you wont push me to the back
I've give in during winter sem
Spare me this time

Anyway, I'm going to CUT!
double triple yippie!

Brand New

semester.
And subjects (even 4 subjects from winter semester stay)
And I'm designing my brand new me.
I've been reflecting and what I saw is a child still living in me
Of unpolished responsibility and where my pillar stands.

I don't want to stay the same.
Time heals but time hurts too.
I expect summer semester to be tougher with long days and 3 finals.
You'll think 3 is very little.
But for me
those 3 mean a year studied subjects,
countless pass years q's,
metres-thick notes that invade my study table
and the prospect of family and home (only if I pass the final though)

And to pass is to prepare from now, seeing that I've a weird pattern of study.
Not mentioning, I'm trying to ignite back my passion for travelling.
And that means less shopping and more savings.
Owh, what a beautiful things to greet me this spring/summer.

But I can't wait to greet new me
"wahai org yg berselimut, bangkit dan berikanlah peringatan"
and I'm going to cast that blanket away and motivate myself

Olomouc

I went to Olomouc yesterday.
The weather's not helping though
I thought I'd died of the winter torture (the subzero chill, slippery walks and mood swing)
Anyhow, we transit at Pardubice (pronounced Pardubitse)
The ride was scenic.
Finally, I've realised that I'm in Europe
Despite the monotonous white, the formation of leaveless tree are beautiful
with small, breathtaking settlements in between vast white fields.
Olomouc, is a bit developed than my Hradec Kralove.
Image from En. Fotographer Shiham

They have a zoo and tall building
And a shopping mall where the shop assistants can speak a lil bit English
Their Hlavni Nadrazi (train station) is relatively small
But I adore the picture/scarving that depicted Czech from all walks of life on the upper wall
Had lunch at a Turkish restaurant.
Lunch was delicious as in delicious.
I had slices of grilled meat with rice.
The rice was fantastic, the taste is undepictable.
Even so, I summoned myself to finish up the meal.
75 Kc and I'm satisfied.
Well, the mission of the day was to shop
As we heard that Olomouc is having end of winter sale
Don't ask about Hradec, we only have Futurum which I think isn't up even to the lousy Summit Bukit Mertajam
Back to Olomouc, we went first to Vietnamese shops (imagine the feeling of Padang Besar,Pengkalan Kubu or Rantau Panjang)
The prices were as dear as in the mall
I manage to bargain though but we left with empty hand and headed for Olympia.
It turned out that all those khabar angin about Olympia is like Midvalley is just indah khabar dari rupa.
(Living in the country area has taken its toll on us heavy-shopper,Megasale Malaysian)
The Pompo (Toy's R Us sibling) is just 2 times larger than Futurum's and apart from that, what makes Olympia nicer than Futurum is just the fact that it has H&M and Re-reserved.
I fall for a pair of skinny jeans which fitted me well (believe me, I've never have a 100% satisfaction when I see myself in pant on the mirror,they would be either too short or the waist is too loose-rintihan org tinggi)
so I went out with smile and holed wallet.
And I saw an adorable bag tagged only 150 Kc. (a bag usually costs around 400 Kc)
I went into the Pompo
Obviously, I need to frequent places like that
My cousin is expecting a baby this summer
Talking about summer, I'll be on tight budget after this,if not I can say babai to Malaysia, see u next year
A big NO!
Next mission, ticket home

My Home

is Malaysia.
Where ever I go, I'm still a Malaysian passport holder.
Even I'm quite worried over its situation right now.
It's still my home.
My country.
So, I'm pissed when people degrading my country.
I ask for respect.
When people can't respect other
That's what that lead to war
Are you too disturbed with the peace that u enjoy?
If u are, please feel free to go and help at war scene
But please don't create war here.
Because I'm very much satisfied with the peace.
Don't go and talk bad about others country.
Your action will be seen as others of your circle action, even they don't know a thing about what u have done.
So, the offended party will not only pass back the smash at you but also the smash will hit some innocent people in your party.
What would you feel if people go banging around your house insulting you when you are helping their children who came to ask for your help.
Please, have some respect.
If not my country, please respect the peace.
We don't have that much of time on this earth.
Why not make something that's nice for the eyes to behold, comforting to the ears to hear, satisfying to the heart that feel and worthy for the fingers to write a great history of man peace.

Miscellaneous - Final Examination

aculty of Medicine in Hradec Kralove, Charles University in Prague.
Final examination is done ORALLY.

Image from here
When u get the credit for the subject, then u can take the final.
You need to book the date through the faculty website
When, the booking is open, a race begins.
Everyone will fight virtually for their preferred date and examiner
However, if u wish to cancel your booking u can do that before 12 midnight before the booked date. (surat menyurat tidak akn dilayan - zmn dah maju, manusia dah berubah, internet pulak laju)

The questions is known.
Like for anatomy there are about hundred something questions.
The possibility you will get that question is 1 out of hundred something.
Formal attire for the final
No sneakers nor jean.
So, I get to be Malaysia promoter by wearing my so striking baju kurung
And suffer from the aching cold winter wind by wearing that boring loafer

So, since it's oral
You'll describe what u know about the question to your examiner like what he or she did 2 u in the lectures.
He/she will either interrupt your explaination with questions or just listening and asking questions after u finish
The evaluation is very subjective, so be prepared mentally
There are so many factors that contribute to your performence in the final oral
They are chances, fate, expectations, luck.
U can get out of the examination room smiling and feeling light
Or out with sour face and holding back tears because u failed because u just didn't know his last question
I say effort is the core but anything may come out.
That is called the reality.

U can read ceiling high notes, passed all your microtests with excellent mark
But u must bear in mind that there's still possibility to fail
And some people can give up halfway, and hold up white flag and gamble
But at last they win the gamble, and pass

It comes to the conclusion that life isn't always to be on top, isn't always about passing. Life is to feel the bitter failure and rise up from it.

First Oral Examination

Yerp, my very first oral examination for subject other than languages.
Many other same final to come.
It's Biophysics exam.
Well, it consists of 1 Excel problem which is solved using the Excel application. (we get to choose the question)
And a triplet (3 topics of biophysics)
Since I was the last person, I just left with excel questions which others before me didn't pick (amik sisa org sj)
Lucky me, there were 5 excel questions left.
My friend who was the last person who took the final the day before just left with 2 questions to pick.
The excel question was a succes.
I just explained and he said okay.
Then for biophysics, I got ECG, Radiation Protection and Dosimetric Unit.
I was relieved. Alhamdulillah.
I thought I did pretty well in explaining but I screwed up when he asked me questions.
Let say I managed to answer only 60% of his questions.
Problem is, I can't understand one of his question (u know, thing about miscommunication)
I totally screwed it up when it comes to his 2 questions on dosimetric unit (earlier, I thought of all 3,dosimetric unit will be my saviour)
but it turned up that that topic landed me on only grade no 3 (which is only pass/good)
twas ridiculous. I did well and just because of those 2 questions which answer is nowhere to be found in all 3 books that I studied for the final, I just got pass.oh really (honestly, I was a bit disappointed)
So, I'm compiling his questions.
Hope they'll come in handy for my juniors
Whatever, my mission for my first years achievement is shattered.
At least, I pass (should I be saying this?pathetic)
Because there are poor people who didn't make it just because a formula (just because a formula?!!!!a formula is the core!- I thought this is what physics academician will shout at me)

Lessons : 3 books is not enough, add up wikipedia and 2 more books

Exam,Final,Test,Periksa,Ujian

I don't hate them.
Instead, I'm ok with them.

I just hate my behaviour when they are around the corner.
When everyone retreat to their books, burning their night lamp and loading their blood circulation with caffein.
I still have the nerve to explore youtube or reading novel or finish 16 episodes soap opera.

Image from DramaWiki
In short, I lack common sense of fearing the exams like normal people does.
I'm well aware of this fact (thus,the posting of this entry)
I'm constantly bothered by this behaviour
Do I need a consultation with a counselor?
Throwing my money for an hour or 2 hours of boring session.
NO.NO.NO.

This behaviour has evoked a silent term between me and all 6 of my dormmates the night before my last paper for SPM (highest cert. for high schooler)
which is Biology

which I never attempt even 80 (besides of Malay language paper-call me Swahili speaking girl)
I don't blame them (girls I really didn't blame y'all okay)
It was my fault
My entire lousy bahavioural pre examination disorder fault
I was on my back reading cheezy,mushy romance novel
When everyone was frantically flipping forecast paper, reference books, text book, past year papers and all that books and papers that concern B.I.O.L.O.G.Y.
I'm glad that I ever had more than someone to push me when I'm in an ill state like that.

But now,
at half past 7 in the evening
I can still write an entry
when my examination is at half past one tomorrow afternoon
with the reading on my rediness scale is 7/10
throw your pencil case on my face pls!

Pohon Gharqad

"Judgement Day will come only when the Muslims fight the Jews and kill them, until the Jew hides behind the tree and the stone, and the tree and the stone say: 'Oh Muslim, oh servant of Allah, there is a Jew behind me, come and kill him' - except for the Gharqad tree."
This is said to be a hadith.

Tentang Mereka

bangsa pejalan malam yang masih membunuh saudara2ku.
yang masih claim tanah itu hak mereka historically,literally,lawfully dan segala -ly yg berkenaan.
rupa-rupanya mereka itu pernah juga membunuh nabi-nabi yang diutuskan utk mrk- Zakaria AS dan Yahya AS.

Jom fikir sekejap.
Bila berita nabi terakhir adalah dari bangsa Arab.
Marah benar ya org2 ini.
Bg mrk, hanaya bangsa mrk yg layak menjadi nabi.
Sekiranya mrk berfikiran begitu, mengapa mrk membunuh nabi2 yg diutuskn kpd mrk, mengapa mrk tidak mahu mengikut ajaran nabi2 yg berkenaan.
Sadis sungguh.
Membunuh sana sini,mencabut segala pokok dan meruntuhkan bangunan.
Runtuh tembok Besar China mereka bina tembok di Tebing Barat.

Bangga dengan polisi kebinatangan
Tak malu mengandaikan darah bangsa lain halal
Buat announcement sana sini mcm lori jual tilam
"ini hak kami, tanah kami"
Dunia pulak angguk angguk mengiakan
Buta apa, gagal logik dan matematik
bukan setakat gagal
untuk dapat bulat merah yg comel 2 pun tak layak

Oh my, oh my!

Rukhsah

There's no usrah this week.
Some empty spaces there..

Btw, nk bicara psl rukhsah dlm post ini.
Rukhsah atau keringanan dlm melaksanakan ibadat.
Selalunya,kalau sebut rukhsah, benda pertama dlm otak- jamak dan qasar.

Bagi pelajar Muslim terutama di negara empat musim ni, di mn semua belajar dlm sistem Barat yg tak mementingkan agama, solat menjadi satu isu.
Tambah2 bila waktu solat singkat dan clash dgn waktu belajar.
Parah.
Tambahan pulak kalau dpt lecturer yg tak b'toleransi.

Tapi di sinilah nampaknya kelebihan rukhsah.
Sedikit clarification di sini.
Qasar atau memendekkan rakaat solat hanya ekslusif untuk musafir dan tertakluk kpd syarat2 tertentu.

Manakala bagi jamak atau menghimpunkan dua solat dlm satu waktu merupakan advantage kepada musafir mahupun mrk yg dlm kesusahan.
Kesusahan yg bagaimana?
Kita ambil contoh, seorang doktor.
Doktor ini perlu menjalankan operation selama 8 jam (mahu pulak dia head surgeon).
8 jam.
Sudah tentu dia akan terlepas waktu salah satu solat fardhu (melainkan kalau dia buat operation dr mlm smpai pagi)
Dalam hal ini, adakah logik doktor itu halt sebentar operation untuk bersolat.
Bygkan anda di meja bedah then doktor tu kata " I need to pray for a while and we will continue this operation after that"
Anda dlm thp kritikal doktor pulak nk solat.
Tak rasa nk baling skalpel kat doktor 2 ka? (pinjam ayat Hlovate)
Dalam Islam juga, antara perkara2 yg wajib dipelihara oleh manusia ialah nyawa, akal, harta dan keturunan.
So utk situasi2 darurat seperti ini, maka dibolehkan doktor itu untuk menjamakkan solatnya.
Begitu juga, pelajar2 yg perlu menghadiri kuliah mahupun kelas praktikal dan kesempitan waktu untuk bersolat, dibolehkan kpd mereka untuk menjamakkan solat.

Berbalik kpd rukhsah solat musafir.
2 kelebihan- jamak dan qasar.
Tetapi, pernah ada yg berkata kpd sy.
"Kita skrg tak perlu nak solat jamak qasar apa dah. Kat Malaysia ni semua lgkp. PLUS ada RnR, tmpt solat"
Sinis ayat itu.
Tapi tak menjwb la waktu tu kn sbb takda jwpn (hehehehe)
Tp Alhamdulillah, bbrp bulan lps 2, sy dgr talk dr Dr Mohd Asri.
Katanya, pernah seorg sahabat b'tny kat Rasulallah SAW.
Ayat mereka lebih kurang begini
"Wahai Rasulallah, perlukah kita menjamakkan/mqasarkan solat. Sekarang kita tidak lagi diancam bhy dan dikejar oleh kaum Quraisy. Kita boleh shj bersolat seperti biasa"
Kata Rasulallah
"Anggaplah itu hadiah dr Allah buat kamu"

So kpd siapa2 yg rs tak nak laksanakan rukhsah walaupun dah cukup syarat.
Terpulanglah.
Tapi tu kan hadiah Allah buat kita.
Tak nak terima ka?

Tepuk dada, tanya selera.
Sekian

Coffe and Salt?

Ay, no connection at all.
Same here.
When I was so attached to nuclear reactor and bremstrahllung radiation, suddenly a pantun popped out in my mind.
Ironic.
I'm not a fan of pantun.
But I come from a school which treasured (I dare not say about the present days)pantun so much (that we are very proud of our pantun team)
Here's the pantun, which popped out from nowhere

Kelip-kelip kusangka api,
Kalau api mana puntungnya;
Hilang ghaib kusangka mati,
Kalau mati mana kuburnya?

p/s : recite dgn penuh penghayatan dan gunakan ton suara yg bersesuaian

Air, Water, L'eau, Voda

Of all things, I choose to write about water.
Hradec Kralove has good public transportation, moderate traffic, and nice town-planning.
But, the only thing is.
Hradec Kralove water quality is among the poorest in Czech Republic.
(what?you want to set up water filter company here?)

Another thing here, beer is very cheap.
Their price is just slightly higher than the drinking water.

Image kidnapped from Flickr

Owh, how I miss this so much!
Huhuhu.
I wish I can swim till I vomit.
I wish for the times when I scrubbed the pool.
The times when I would sweep falling leaves on the owh so georgeous pool side
And pour chlorine into the blue water at nights.
My life mission : to have a swimming pool (impian atau sasaran?)

Am I a Chicken?

I'm not talking about me as a coward if that is what you think.
Neither a prostitute (mintak simpang)

But I'm feeling like I'm a chicken because I need to take so many shots (vaccination) ever since I was born (thanks Malaysian government)

Image kidnapped from Flickr
Shots are good, no doubt about that. Otherwise, my immune system would fail me.
But when I was a baby I got shots.
In elementary, I got shots.
In high school I got shots.
To work at Pizza Hut, I got shot.
And to be a doctor, i got 3 extra shots.
Even a chicken doesn't get that much shot in its life *sigh*

Anyway, I just want to tell you.
That to be a doctor, we need to take Hepatitis B shots.
3 shots Within a year.
So that we can practise without giving our patient extra helping to their immune system.
After a month of your first shot, you need to take your second shot and 6 months after that, is your final shot.

I did my first shot in Malaysia.
I got the shot at my waist.
The doctor told me it hurts less.
And he was right.

Too bad, I delayed my second shot.
So I start over again (look, that make 4 extra shots for me instead of 3,oh my!)
I paid 720 Kc (26 EURO or RM144)
For a morsel of alcohol
A shot and a tiny plaster
Just one complain here-could you rub more alcohol please?coz I can feel the needle in my vein.

Pengajaran di sini : for those kt Malaysia, be grateful, coz kita kena rub dgn alkohol yg byk,even misi 2 tonyoh-tonyoh,asalkan time kena injek tak sakit sgt.

Midnight Snack

When you date with these

You need food, even it's already midnight.
And when you are in peaceful country area of Hradec Kralove, you need to fix your midnight snack by youself.
There's no thing such as 24 hour nasi kandar restaurant

bakery is my least fav place yet there the unappetizing croissant lays
I miss burger stalls, roti canai with kuah dhal and a blissful glass of teh tarik back home.


You'll never come to appreciate the things that you have until those things are no more there